I wonder why I forget things.
"Oh yeah, I have a blog!" just popped into my head this morning.
I live my days conjuring things I'd like to say...in songs, in life, to friends, on social media. And, all those things seem pertinent and interesting when they pop into my head. I ruminate around the state of violence in our world, or the upcoming presidential election, or my lack of appreciation for rap music amidst its continued pervasiveness...
But then I forget them.
I actually forgot last week that I was enrolled in grad school. I somehow remembered that I need to sign up for a fall class, but then I forgot to do it.
I often forget to do one of the things I truly love doing: write music. I signed up for a six-month songwriting program in January, thinking I'd have ten songs done by June. I have only one, partially due to having a busy life, but mostly because I never remember to do the homework.
One friend of mine, Rebecca, said to me: "You always forget when we talk about getting together!" She's right. If I don't email it to myself right after its mention, the wonderful plan we verbally just made will be lost in the ether. And, I love Rebecca.
I don't think I have early onset Alzheimer's.
I'm pretty sure I'm not inconsiderate.
So, why? Is my life too full? Is my brain too small? Do I have memory issues? Am I grotesquely insincere?
Stress, anxiety, depression, sleep deprivation, medications, and lack of B12 vitamins can all cause short-term memory loss. So can thyroid problems.